Black Woman Pride

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Instant Recognition of Me

Wait…

 

Wait for the instant clarification of silence

I pause my verbal digestion for your hearing to eagerly devour

Each hour of gained comprehension of how I do me as who I was created to be

Fancy this

I am the explanation why the room comes to a halt when I touch the door knob, grasp and allow myself in

All eyes laid upon this wealth, this shell I claim as myself

Speaking I begin to taste the attention I am given as I proceed

Walking through a crowd with only a few I recognize pure as me

Fancy that

Configuring the nonchalance I speak of my reflection.

Moving through the anticipated moment to consider me the greatest

While watching you and yours, mine & ours joining each into one respected region as I continue as Cali through this room full of many

This Globe, I am tired of standing on

I soar with the astronauts & surf galaxies as more admire & conjure I with envy ..

Inspired by free

Notified of this as I was a spirit before my introduction to this outer frame
I said already that I claim with this beautiful frame and utmost name… Jeanay

But I go by Cali everyday

Standing here tonight I admit I was a child not ignorant but left without the acceleration of growth I had to experience each lesson in life God had choose…

And so then I wrote, maturity comes with choice and not with physical growth..

My pride reflects like the quartz at the tip of the pyramids reflecting each night and by the morning star each day

I am the main attraction no interruption can cease this moment as I shout at the mountain I AM THE GREATEST!!

 

Perfectly imperfect I am here for myself….

And the crowd stands to their feet, stage lights hit the crease between cheeks

Ear to ear a gap of affection, satisfaction granted to my presence as I slide through the people to my exit as each whispers,

“She is the greatest”

Recognize What I See

The way I see you

Is not how you view yourself

I see greatness within oneself

& you remain as someone else...

perseverance will carry your ambition beyond the moon...

but your effort will drop the anchor beneath the sea

take my words as kind advice..

& create something great with your life.

Lets Chill.

Let's chill.
Those two famous words
Turning nouns into verbs as we smoke on this herb
Relax...
Lay back & puff this thrax
We lose time; not gettin it back
Let's take a look at the facts
Your fly..

Like alligator eyes..
Wondering the temp between those thighs
As I look at your chinky eyes
Your ready.
To go for a ride
Sit back & let me drive
Let's chill for awhile.

Feeling so elated, blunt got me escalated
Feelin like we shoulda dated
I know....but times like this we shoulda waited
Til we made our destination

Cuz I'm sitting back, eyes glazed & I'm high...
Flame burnin at the tip
First blunt si la vie
Its just us when u vibe with me
& its guaranteed we get by...

Happy in our zones
On our way to our homes
Smoke up through our domes
Perpetrators leave us lone
Don't text or call my phone
Too busy in my zone
Weed so right but legally its wrong
Who cares were both grown
Lol... just goofing off :)

Just Breathe

Parts of me
Just wants relief of the debacle set ..
In front of me
I roll my trees
Solo; I smoke my weed
With my picnic by the sea..I just breathe....

As my mind stays clear..focused on the sunrise..
I... sit... by my side..
Wipe my eyes as I no longer cry
I... sigh & wonder why...

Like a seed.. optimism manifests
An existence unlike the rest..
Certain about this journey..about this test
Where I succeed ...beyond the rest..
I stand firm on my ten.. loose hair moves in the wind
Sea air fill behind my breast as I breathe....

I feel ... blessed.
This mission twas unlike the rest as I... breathe..
Seeking my relief ...
The Atlantic washes upon my feet as failure within me weeps ...
Defeat...
Washes away beyond the reef...
I watch the sun splash onto the sea..
As I hold myself & my solidarity..

Peace in my soul I have reached a new peak..
As .. I breathe... I exhale serenity.

Got til Its Gone

You cannot say you have been in love

until you experience the pain of your heart being broken..

shattered like a vase that had been sitting on the shelf... away from those who play too much..

To only place it in the hands of one who doesn't recognize the worth of it.

And destroy it like waking up too early from a wonderful dream.

It beats slowly... or expedites the process of blood flow through the body to fill in the adrenaline of the pain cause the moment the glass touched the floor..

This woman's love goes deeper than most.. loyal & dedicated to the one she feel in love with..

To still love a person even after the vase was broken.. they patiently sat together, trying to piece each part together...

She cut herself many times attempting to bring the vase back to its original appearance..

The effort.. the continuous trying to make it feel the same as it were...

The agony alone brings her to tears as she still tries to maintain her smile

& she tries to portray anything but how she feels inside

The love was over before it began.. then person of which she trusted was never worthy of being trusted holding her vase..

She had never been hurt so bad in all her days...

Staying awake late at night as if the awkward silence of laying alone would help her ease the hatred slowly building in heart her for one she previously loved so dearly.

Selfishly not appreciating what she had offered, given... nothing reciprocated but lessons behind lessons... telling her to leave but with the masking of love, she stayed

Moved far away, to stay... gave everything materialistic away so that one day, he will say, I am sorry I caused you so much pain..

There is no easy way to end love..

Its either a broken heart or death of a loved one.. 

Love is an existence.. much more than just an emotion.

It is the stepping stone to building and changing a person from who they were to who they are..

Diminishing the value of trust as each task is challenged an lost to infatuation

Her heart can no longer take it.

She removes all memories of him from her mind...

She stares at the keys of the computer wondering what should she say to end this sad story..

Never fall in love. You'll only get hurt

Now as she disappears from his sight, he sighs wishing for her to return... She is now down..

The lesson has been learned

Black Womens Pride Gone Missing

Oh where...oh were...has self respect gone?
Dignity & pride is long long gone...
Women posting pictures half nude in thongs..
I wonder..I wonder where did we go wrong?

Physical appeal has replaced intelligence indefinitely

Twerking to stripping.. what has taken our women so much further from divinity? Why is it that many black women especially no longer carry themselves as queens but as a mere piece of meat on a fishing string,hovering over a lake of a bunch of hungry men..?..but calls them this new term "thirsty"...?

Internet fame for likes most of them call themselves models.. unpaid, undergrad, kids or none but still why show so much of your soul? Our body is our only claim, as we are spirits living within these frames... but so many dames run around behaving untamed and most would say an absent father is to blame.......

Why is it the women of my race is ridiculed more than any other race in the world? & most of the jokes comes from our own black men? Have we not seen enough of the further tarnishing of the beautiful black queen? So many weaves, fake nails, fake lashes, overly perfect eyebrows.... when it rains they look insane...but who is really at fault to blame?

Do we go back to the 70s where they beat the black man down so hard, black women preferred to be resembled of a white woman by perms? Or should I take it to the 80s, when mike went white & all hope was lost forever?

(That was a joke...maybe lol)

But still...do we take it to today where they'd rather paint a light skinned woman dark or even go as far as a white woman to be black because a lot of us seemingly carry ourselves so sloppy?

Black women, what happened to your pride? Our asses are big but where's our degrees? Were popping out babies but where are the rings? Make him pay child support to take yourself on shopping sprees? Housing pays the rent, but the lights are never paid... but you always make sure you copped the new jays...

Black men, aren't you tired of being locked up for killing your own brother over money? Aren't you tired of having children you never see and can't afford but you have yet to wear that trojan horse? Aren't you tired of living with your mother? She's stressed enough as it is trying to feed her grandkids....

My black people.... what is happening to us??? Please... wake the phuck up...we should not be like this. Our race is overly unique to all other races ergo we are the goddesses & kings of this land... why is it that none of us OVERstand?....

Images like these below are surfacing all over the internet as ways to gain followers and likes but I wonder, is the self disrespect even worth it? Why go out of our way to gain acceptance of people who we may never EVER meet in life? ratchet, ghetto... these terms have been embedded in our race like we began as such..

We were once kings and queens who ruled our own lands... 

Now we live in a country that barely respects us as a whole, we have plenty bibles and many Christians attending church every Sunday, churches on every other corner in the hood, but why is it that we don't own anything? Atlanta was suppose to be known as the "Black Mecca" but even that city is run by races other than our own... I wonder where in history did we get driven so far apart from each other, we do not build our race, but we disgrace it but slandering anyone with a darker complexion...

and glorify those who are lighter ...

But isn't our race that declared to be equal amongst those who are white/Caucasian?

I don't understand what happened to where now if you are a dark skinned black woman, you are ghetto, trashy, slutty, undefined without character, etc... But if you are light skinned black woman, you are BADD...(notice the two D's as if its any more significance than just one..) & really just overall the better pick..

Men would rather make children with you so their hair will be curly and so forth... 

I see what many men are referring to when they say they would rather date a 'red, yellow or light skinned woman'... Primarily in the hoods, or ghettos so to speak, many women that are darker, carry themselves a different way then women who are lighter... 

[This is based on my own experience and in no way shape or form am I supporting being bias to our own race.]

The verbiage, vernaculars, the popular catch phrases of the week and so forth and so on... its become a negative signature of darker complexion women these days and I noticed a high number of men becoming more and more famous basing their skits on the behavior of black women. Dr Sotomayer is a YouTube sensation who does just that. I cannot lie, he aggravates me sometimes because I wish he did more building then insulting, but realistically, a lot of black women are insulting us as a whole just by behaving ignorantly on purpose... Emmanuel Hudson & his brother/friend whomever he is... Their skits are humorous but who are they targeting? Black women. Its a shame when black women don't even realize that we are being more and more criticized by our own race.. It hurts to see us being downgraded as a whole... its almost like I have to prove myself as an individual that I am not like the women they encountered...

Times have changed.... We have lost our men to ourselves but to others...(get it?)

even lesbian women feel the pressure of dating a darker woman because she may be a lot more ghetto than the lighter one... I know I am not the only one who sees it..

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